One big family

There is no other great word to begin with rather than

بسم الله ‎

It is always about the blessing, the rain and new life

Life is like a deep ocean, many of us are sinking and drowning. If you want to stay afloat, sail it with a ship called taqwa, filled with faith and the sail is tawakal to Allah.

Admittedly, everyone would certainly feel lonely whenever they are far from those they love and care. As a mortal human, the feeling is deeper when we are at a new place surrounded by strangers and knowing we have nobody to rely on or trust, rather than the Almighty Allah.

We will always walk together in hand, as one big family

 Sometimes I’ll be walking home alone, patiently waiting for bus. Putting on the earphone and start listening to soft peaceful songs. The evening is getting dark, yet there are still some people waiting. Often I wonder why life is so quiet and monotonous. Yet, once awhile I meet them, unexpectedly. Perhaps, in the midst of the crowds when I’m on the go, heading to a place. They are very  familiar to me, friends and companions shall I describe.

Today we are together. We treat ourselves with a simple dinner. We spend the night laughing, giggling and reminding each other. They remind me of the clear purposes, goals, hopes and wishes in life. Never have I felt such bond before. Perhaps being far from home makes me rely and value the ukhwah and friendship more. It makes me wonder and thankful for all the blessings. I’ve always been granted by good and caring companions. Alhamdulillah shall I say. Despite the road is long, there will always be aids and helps along the way. Indeed they are always there to fill, cheer and colour my life up. I just need to seek deeper to realise that we are one big family.

There will always be light guiding us, whether it is bright or deem. We decide.

They taught me that in life we have various understanding, chiefly in religion. Some might be excellent and proficient in engineering, commerce, medic or even architectures while some are good in memorising the Holy Quran and thousand of hadith. We all have our strength and expertise in certain fields. In order to be good, we ain’t need to be those who are faqīh in religion. Indeed, knowledge itself is not sufficient, yet implementation is the priority. We may be lack in hadith and Quran knowledge, yet that is not a boundary to implement our duties and learn.

They taught me that human is like soils and they exist in three forms. They may be clay that is resistance to water and expel them, these are people who never accept any advises, hard and avoid cultivation. There is also sand, it absorb the water yet it slip through the particles. These are group that listen to good advices, yet never embark to remember or exercise it. Lastly is the fertile soil that absorbs and retain the water. They are human that is ready to sit and listen and ultimately practice them in daily life. Hopefully, we are among those who understand and ready to learn successively cultivate self to good deeds. Inshaallah with Allah’s will.

We ain't and never have been alone.

Indeed, we have varies and totally different path and obstacles in life. But, one thing that I did find in common was, we were learning. Those who learn from mistakes are smart. Yet, those who learn from other’s mistakes are intelligent.

Lets us learn to appreciate, be grateful with all the privileges we have. The good companions, health, wealth, peacefulness and even obstacles to nurture and grow us. Indeed to Allah we all belong, and to Him we'll return.

That's for now. Take care till then. Jazakallah khayran for reading this.

A boy

There is no other greater word to begin with, rather than

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمنِ الرَّحِيمِ

A day full of blessing and love

You are never obliged nor compel to read, it is a fair choice. 

It had been awhile since it last rained in Adelaide. Suddenly it started raining today, as if it answered to my sorrow heart. It had always a delightful to me whenever it rained as it sprouted life, comfort and coldness to humankind. It was a blessing. 

There was once a boy, living in the midst of the chaotic life, yet seem peaceful and calm in the eye of others. Gloomy days filled his weeks. He may seem kind and happy, yet there was something, something about him. 

He was never been an outstanding boy and willingly nodded to most of his friends criticises without defending himself nor ire. Admittedly he was never been a stylish person with noble characters or a boy who is good in something like his friends had. Yet, he believed they knew truly nothing about him, how did he struggle to stay afloat while the world tried to sink him, how he learned to run while others were walking and how he tried to be different while others were just following the norms. He believed, internally and silently he gained lots of inner success. He was truly grateful upon the opportunities given. 

Yet, there was something that was lacking in his life, something that he tried so hard to root it out yet still failing. It made him upset and sometimes dragging him to a dead end. His evil black heart kept on dragging him to go over the boundary and breached the fundamental rule. It was not that he didn’t try, yet sometimes he was very weak and fragile inside. The inner window that securely protecting him all these while began to crack bit by bit. He almost lost hope and ran out of solutions. Often he prayed to Allah to guide him, protect him from all these unbearable tribulations.

A boy seeking for something

He remembered doing it over and over again. A firm promise that he made before was breached several times. He felt so guilty and kept on condemning himself. He had no idea of how it happened, it happened in a blink of an eye. He prayed that morning and followed by a dua’, a repentance seeking for Allah forgiveness and mercy upon his mistakes. That was not the first time he made such request. “Do He forgives me?” a question that he sometimes thought. 

He once had a dream; dream that he secretly kept, a chance that he never got and a wish that he always wanted. A dream to study abroad, to a country he admired since childhood. He had doubt about it, a doubt that he would never make it. The unexpected obstacles that made it impossible and he prayed. Yet Allah knew everything. Today he received news saying the dream would be realised soon. Alhamdulillah he landed safely eventually. 

He was new here. The life, school and environment were very strange for him. He knew that he could barely made friend and often lonely. Yet, Allah knew best and had a better planning than others. He knew that he needed a companion.  On the very first day, he met a boy, a not yet muslim heading to a similar class, yet stranded for not-knowing the venue. Now they were tagged, a helpful friend and a mate to share joy and happiness.

Life full of cost and obstacles, yet there is a way out. Seek deeper.

He reflected these and now he realized.

Allah had always cared for him. He may be full of sins, yet He would always bless the believers with love and mercy. He forgave us whenever we repented to Him sincerely irrespective how many time we did wrongs. He always knew what was the best for us. Sometimes we thought that the things we liked were the best. Yet, He knew more. Those we liked may not be the best for us, and those we hated may be good things. When the time was hard, and there was no way to turn, surely He would always be there, because He promised He would.

Now he knew, he should change his life. Turning over a new leaf was the best answered. Sometimes, the lures did come. Yet, he remembered, that Allah is always watching him, guiding him and giving him strength. He was not alone in this inner battle. He couldn’t afford to be defeated again. Yet, he was still learning, learning from mistake, learning from his lovable and caring companions. It was still a beginning. He prayed.

Ya Rabbi

Please forgive me for all my pass sins

I was too weak and vulnerable

I was wronged

For departed far from you

Guide me back to Your straight path

To Your light and blessing

Give me strength 

To practice Your true religion

Indeed, only to You I ask for aid and protection

Amin

There are something to be happy and grateful for, always.

Indeed, the race was still long and winding. He was just at the starting line.

An Arab is not superior over the non Arab. The white man is not superior over the black man. Yet, He will look in the taqwa in your heart. 

That’s for now. Take care till then. Jazakallah khayran for reading this. 

Today

Ya Rabbi

Sometime it is just too hard to move on

Everytime I tried to stand

I will fall

Sometime it is hard to be good all the time

Be silent when others are demeaning me

When others are ignoring me

When they criticize me

Sometimes it is just too hard to change

To clean this evil heart

To be as happy as those out there

Ya Rabbi

I wish I can have all the good friends in the whole world

I wish I can be around those who care and love

I wish I be good as them

Sometime I wish I can swiftly jump to a quiet place

Far from them

Far from everything

But I can't

Because it is not what it's suppose to be

I wish and I hope You will always guide me

Be with me

Whenever I’m feeling down, all alone, in grieve

I hope I will always remember you

In the time of happiness and despair

Truly I can’t survive in this strange world alone

Even for a day

Please, never ignore me

Because I’ve no one else but You...

Ya Rabbi

I don't know how long I can stay this way

Give me strength

Shows me hope and chance

Only to You I lean all my whispers of hope

Indeed, only to you I seek for help and ultimate protection

Amin~

Ignorance

There is no other great word to begin with rather than

 بسم الله

Just another remainder for self, chiefly and a lesson for you, hopefully.

Rain is a blessing that shouldn't be taken for granted 

It was a bone-chilling Thursday morning in early autumn. However, it was warm and welcoming in Dr Aji's house, treated with unfailing hospitality and being served with piping hot yet tantalizing breakfast did really make us felt like kings. I was enjoying pairs of toasted breads meanwhile he was stroking his elegance-red iPad when out of the blue he turned to me, “Do you know what the fastest car in the world is?” I took a glimpse at his iPad, apparently he was reading an online automotive magazine. I tried to evade from answering the question by cracking some jokes, yet ended up saying, “honestly, I don’t know”. He spent the next hour telling me in depth his passion on cars, despite I was sinking into blurriness to differentiate between super car and sport car, and not-knowing what the horsepower do was the worst part.  Rest assured, I was damn stupid when it came to automotive. But, it was interesting and eventually I did learn Bugatti Veyron, was the fastest car.

Proven, all this while, I barely read.

Sometimes by looking back, we trace our mistakes

Frankly, I don’t have a father who is keens to talk on politics, no elder brother with passion on cars and irrefutably I’m suck at soccer, scared and overwhelm by many doubts to have a bash, never have any initiative to embark reading outside the textbook, heeding any world’s crux issues and news nor enhancing my knowledge and skills in life. I swiftly follow the safe route, walking along the similar road and lock myself behind the gate of my comfortable habit-fortress. I simply go along with the flow. Obviously, I’m being ignorant and wronge right from the very beginning. 

But I believe everyone has own weaknesses and those who realise it should be grateful. Our world is no longer similar as our forefathers’ generation. It is far from a happy-go-lucky ride filled with joyful giggles. Gladly this few days, I realise that my life has to change especially at becoming a knowledgeable person. The two weeks holiday eventually comes to an end and back to real life mode.

10 muwasafat tarbiyah

 10 MUWASAFAT TARBIYAH: 10 key characters of devout muslim


Dear reader,

Having wide knowledge
Be organised and professional in every duty or business
Restrain self from lusts and lures
Firm and clean aqeedah
Practicing right ibadah
Nobel and high morals
Strong yet healthy body
Able to stand on own feet
Be useful to others
Always be on the dot

I believe, improving oneself is the top priority and Imam Hassan al-Banna outlined these 10 guidance in becoming  a better muslim. Honestly, I'm still lacking of most of them. Yet, we are learning. Inshallah.

Admittedly, it is uneasy to clog themselves from the strong lusts and desires swiftly, either possessing broad and holistic knowledge, forbid delay and be punctual, be organised in every aspect and business of life, instil and cultivate strong and noble morals, strong physical and stays healthy, standing on own feet and be independent, be useful and hearten others, has prudent and clean aqeedah and practising true ibadah by emulating our Prophet, Muhammad SAW. Yet, we could always try to improve ourselves, all it takes is tawakal and determination to change for the better.

It is a long and winding road

Life is full with trials and challenges. Indeed, nothing in life is free. Sometimes it may gets too much, the tribulation might be too heavy and we may feel that we've lost touch.Yet, the road is still long. Ya Rabbi, give us light and make us strong. Shows us right from wrong.

 May we always be under Your guidance.

That's for now. Till next time. Jazakallah Khayran for reading this.

Sense of belonging

There is no other great word to begin with rather than 

 بسم الله ‎

"Deliver it, despite one sentence". Truthfully, I don't have the power and courage to speak to the crowd, so lets the words do my part. 

Beautiful fall foliage colors

It was a bright-full-moon cold night in early autumn. Despite the temperature dropped to only 13°C, it chilled us up to the bone. Only with the help of thick jumper, pairs of socks plus a well occupied sleeping bag, we were able to calm ourselves down. We were at the campsite near Stirling, a walking distance to Adelaide Hill, purely with intention to escape from the hectic life as university student and free our minds by being close to nature. It was truly worthful, colourful scenery of trees shedding their leaves, encountering adorable wild koala and brave Kookaburra-an Australian bird and even exploring the high hill of Adelaide. It was a good starting for long autumn holiday. 

Everyone has a problem, chiefly sailing the student’s life. Some share it with good friends and reliable housemates, yet some decide to deal it alone, believe they are capable of overcoming it. Some end up with brilliant and effective solutions and sadly some sink into the midst of chaotic problem and struggling to stay afloat. Some can’t control their ire and anger, some too afraid to speak up and advising others, some in consistent in good actions, some easily forgetting crucial tasks, some can’t stop wasting and drag into laziness and some just can hardly control their appealing desires. Truly, we are experiencing the same scenarios and phenomenon. 

Beats your problems today and step forward 

Accordingly, there are millions and countless routes to deal with them. Some seek good reliable friends to embark a friendly alliance, supporting, caring and advising each other, others practice good habit to control anger, or perhaps having one private tweeter account to release them is a good solution, using another medium to speak up and tell the world what your feeling is another way of conveying the good messages, start making a simple yet comprehensive schedule and notes to prevent any forgetful habit, consistently doing the most minimum act may cultivate us to do more in the future and be strict to yourself would lend a hand in controlling your wavy desires and laziness. Frankly, there is no problem can’t be fixed if we seek deeper enough.

Lets your heart free from the world's chains

Lets us open the eyes of our heart 

Naturally, everyone has a sense of belonging. If we are staying in the peaceful Malaysia, surely we support the team when against Singapore in a soccer match. If you have been hanging out with your childhood friends, rest assured you would join them if dragged to a fight protecting your love one. Likewise, we should have a sense of belonging when see a foreign women wearing veil or strangers praying on an open field.  A sense of belonging as an Islam and a muslim. 

In common, heart or medically called as liver is the most essential organs in a perfect human body. Perhaps in narrow perspective, heart is the organ responsible for feelings and emotion, who knows. As well in Islam, heart controls your action, message, instinct and whim and a sense for roh and spirit indeed. A pure heart drives good deeds and dark heart cultivates dreadful actions and wishes. Truly, Allah does not look at the appearance and physical being, rather than their hearts and actions. 

Read by heart and not your corrupted imaginary brain

Therefore, lets US together knock and open our locked blinded heart, friendly spread the message to those who we feel belonged to. We are like metal, can be restructured if we tried to understand the true meaning of life without losing the value and good characters.

Lets us follow the straight path to blessed hereafter and be among those who are forgiven and love by Him. Inshaallah.

All His blessings are just a test, so be thankful and you will pass with flying colours.

7:179

16:71

6:165

That’s for now. Take care till then. Jazakallah khayran, for reading this. 

Repentance

There is no other great word to begin with, rather than Bismillah.

Externally we may seem strong, but inside we are fragile

It was a fine Friday morning, yet my intention not to sleep after Subuh turned to ashes. I fell asleep while browsing the internet via handphone on my pink comfortable bed. Latey, Subuh here is very early, chiefly after the light saving period has ended weeks ago. The sun has already up as early as 6.30am. The wind was blowing strongly. It was autumn and the three months summer  eventually came to an end. Despite the temperature was just 13 degree celcius, it was no-walking-outside without a jumper. A simple breakfast will do, instead of jam or peanut, cold ice-cream was put in the middle of the sliced bread before folding it into half. Indeed, a peculiar breakfast. Actually, I have been on a week holiday and there was still a week remaining before the lectures commenced. It was the last thing that I would think about.

I spent the next few hours reading article on petroleum and unexpectedly ended up scrutinizing PETRONAS’s company account. Based on the balance sheet, obviously they did making lots of profit. I did take a glimpse on Harakah Daily and almost posted on Facebook an attractive article, I presume it was, stating a fact that cost of providing free education up to tertiary education was lots cheaper than the cost of implementing PLKN. Frankly, I thought government should reconsider continuing such patriotic camp. 

Far I have lost, far from guidance

Nevertheless as Subuh, Zuhur was very early too. Nearly 12.15pm, we slid into our small green car who we bought for $1200 from a foreigner, compelled to sell it as he was returning to his country. It was a short 12 minutes drive to Al Khalil Mosque. 

The first 50 minutes made me wondering why it was in Arabic instead of English. I assured, the jamaah wasn’t Arabs in total. We Malaysian were listening patiently for the first half and hour, before some of us succumbed to sleep. Truly, once a Malaysian, always a Malaysian, regardless where were us. A guy stood in front of the crowd, translating the Khutbah, filled the remaining 30 minutes. 

Books, filled small part of our life

Some of the Khutbah,

WHY OUR GOOD DEEDS REJECTED BY ALLAH AZZA WA JALLA

Must believe in Allah

The intention must for Him without seeking complements and fame.

Accordance to Sunnah of Rasulullah, SAW

Those who pray, fast and cumulatively doing good deeds yet at the same time making hidden sins, the deeds may not be accepted, except upon true repentance.

Ya Rabbi,

Far I've travelled

Far from your straight path

Far from your blessings

Oh God,

I'm weak

Drown in self desires

Show me the light

Lighten up my dark heart

Don't ever lose hope, Inshaallah there's still be light tomorrow

Dear reader,


A guy had been running around the house bare footing for several years and one particular day he accidentally stepped on a sharp thorn, yet no wound nor blood seem to appear. The thick skin developed underneath the feet, did really save his life. However, on the other hand a young guy who used to wear thick comfortable leather shoes accidentally stepped on a small sharp object,  when he was bare footing at his green garden. Accordingly, there was a small cut and blood came out.

That is how I describe if your heart is hard and dark, you will no longer feel and guilty and regret for doing any sins. But, those who protect their heart, coat it with undivided faith, unshaken taqwa and strong believe, even a small sin will hurt and touch their heart.

I may not seem a very religious person nor have an in depth and thorough knowledge in it. Yet, I do know and believe everyone does mistakes in life. It is just a matter of how they cope with it. They possess all the free choices available, to do it successively or to turn over a new leaf. Similarly as me. I choose it for the my betterment, and hopefully you too will make the right choice.

Truly, our iman is like a wave. The wind may  blows strongly, and it rises high up in the air creating huge waves with peak and trough. We can either be swimming on the top nor drowning under.

Lets we have a pure strong heart. May we all change for the better. 

That's for now. Take care and till next time.

Embrace life

There is no other greater word to begin with, rather than 

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمنِ الرَّحِيمِ

A window keeping me off from malicious world outside

Admittedly, I come from a very well moderate family, not as rich as I dream of nor as poor as those who are begging for food and suffered in hunger. Perhaps my mum is naturally a well trained financial advisor and a gifted book keeper. Well, we did suffer a strict momentary period at the end of each month, but it would certainly be over at the beginning of following month. 

As for me, Alhamdulillah I'm blessed, right from the day I was born. My mum once told me that there were some complications during the delivery. The doctor was unable to pull me out, I was sophisticated. “You look pale and blue” that was what my mom told me when the situation was over. The doctor was expecting any brain damage or something, a common complication suffer by any babies underwent similar scenario. “But, Alhamdulillah you were fine” a must sentence for my mom to end her story. 

Well, as I reflect back to my 20 years of living, lots of stuff I’ve gained and many unexpected things happen and change beyond the world we use to live in, the circle that we created by ourselves. Back in primary school we weren’t matured to think and differentiate between bad and good. I remembered crying for not bringing any textbook, as I thought I was still in the exam week , back in year one. The teacher kept on consoling me, “It is ok, we are not gonna learn anything today” she said. Honestly, I loved to skip evening class “sekolah agama” with no particular reasons. As I can recall, out of 5 schooling days, I attended 3 of them at most and Friday is a must-skip day. I assume, it is funny when I think about it again.

The no-similar school life

I really miss the moment of high school life. There is where all the joys and laughter come together as I recall it. Despite there are some not-so-happy moments, yet the blissful occasions fade them all. Here, life so much different. No longer borrowing friend’s book to complete the lab report, no longer fun studying until the very late night, yet exam is just tomorrow and nothing joyful than sitting on friend’s stretched bed talking about people and issues at school.

 On the other hand, foundation is really a huge challenge for me: stepping into the world of varieties and unpredictability. Yet, it taught me well and it did change me somehow from bad to good and some from good to bad, sadly. 

Life never always a plain sailing

So, it is true life is full of surprises. I smiled to myself on how a not-so-close schoolmates turn out to be the one that is close to you. We hardly saying Hi to each other before, but now we become a good friend. Yet, how surprising that the friendship that I tried to build before, turn out to be “silent” relationship when we leave our school age. Thus, in life there are lots more to be discovered. Certainly, there will be a very down moment in everybody’s life, it is the moment when we are really tested. 

Nothing is impossible for Him, even dying tree come alive with His will

Last week I called a friend in Malaysia, a very close friend of mine. His STPM result came out recently. We went to the primary school together, when he moved to my hometown at the age of 12. We achieved success together back there. Yet, fate held us apart when he was accepted to a boarding school far to the east of Malaysia, yet mine was at the very north. We sometimes met during the school breaks. I feel sorry for him, yet nothing I can do rather than to pray for the best to him. Allah knows the best. Remember, when you feel all alone and nobody to wipe your tears, He knows. When you feel it is too heavy and you no longer have any courage to move on, He knows. Even a drop of leaf from a single tree, out of thousand and billions of plants, in a place out of nowhere in the earth, He knows. Only to Him we seek the ultimate protection and comfort. All the best to you.  Take care till then.

New layout

The place we spend our late evening

I've updated my blog to this complex awesome feature. Somehow, I still learning on how to use it. If u drag your mouse to the right side of this page, there is a docked slide. You can choose what to view swiftly. Sorry for the bright colored post before, as the background changes, I haven't discovered on how to adjust it. Just highlight it if you feel of reading it. Yet, reading this blog is not a force or you are compel to do so.

Well on the top left side there are icons Home and Timeslide. You can click on the Timeslide and choose your preferred view options as well.

New profile picture, love it. I even make it as my desktop background.

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pijul