Last moment together...

A ship that will never sink, friendSHIP...

My beloved bag

I believe everyone has a story to tell, regardless is sad, happy, exciting or problematic. Some need someone to share their happiness, anxious, worries, and why is that? Why people can’t just keep it to themselves? Just a simple answer will do, because sharing brings people together.

I also have a story to tell. A story to my brand new life.

Despite all my sad posts about life being distressful, sad and challenging. There was silver lining in every cloud. I did learn a lot; principles in life, true friendship that I never felt before, obstacles that were there to guide us to be a better person and someone that you could rely on whenever you were at the bottom of the life-wheel. It made me be very very happy and grateful, indeed.

I was very very grateful to have tremendously nice, caring and understanding best friends to be aside me, facing the hardships in life. I always prayed that God would bless me with good friends, and He answered me. Alhamdulillah... I didn’t really know how to describe them in words, yet they were the most awesome friends that everyone would probably dream of. All the sad and joyful moments that we spent together really caused me to miss them badly. I was glad and happy to have them as my friends.

We spent most of our times together, sharing stories that really made us extremely close and understanding each other in our unique ways. Certainly, I gonna miss all those moments. :’(

So I’m writing this letter to you, with a hope that you will understand

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Dear my beloved friend,

No one would ever predict that we would be a very best friend at an instance look. No one would ever know that we were meant to be a very special friend. Yet, sooner or later we would probably realise. I was really grateful and happy that the fate chose us to be together, as you always said that God had a plan for everyone.

Sometimes I felt that I have wasted my valuable life by being sad and jealous over stuffs that I should be grateful of. Maybe it was still hard for me to realise and appreciate something while we had it, rather when it gone. But, you never tired and stopped reminding me about it.  Indeed those moments that undoubtedly brought us together. It was the moments that made us to openly telling what exactly we felt. Shall I call it as fate?

I was sorry as sometimes I  got carried away by my own thinking. My mind and feeling deceived me, indeed. I was just my habit not to think about others feeling, others concern, despite the fact that you would always be there for me. I was really grateful to be given a friend like you. I promised you that I would try to be happy in life and try my best in everything I’m going to do.

Now, we had come to the end. I felt really sad. Honestly, I would be missing you a lot. The friendship that we had was very special indeed. I will never forget you and hopefully you would also remember me. Please do keep in touch. Please take a very good care of yourselves, your health, you will always, indeed forever be my best friend. :’)

Truly with love,

Pjul

My beloved accounting classmates & Miss Esther

My joyful economics classmates & Mr Nedu

Some of the A1 classmates-love you guys!

Sue Yinn, Stephen n me lol :))

Gonna miss u guys :')

Till we meet again

We are different

We all always have a story to tell ...

Obviously, there is much type of people with broad personalities around us. Some are unexpectedly sad, unreasonably happy, and successively moody and lots more. Frankly, I’m not really good onto understanding others, consolidating and actually know what they are thinking...daa I’m not a psychic, obviously... 

Yet, some people can be very patient to others, despite I may think that the fella a bit annoying, unpredictable... I do really respect them. This is something that everyone should learn, to be a very good listener.Basically, this is all come from love, care, sympathy and putting yourselves onto others’ shoes.

Imagine you are a type of person who always requires people attention and care. You always rely on your best friends to be there for you, lending a hand, understand how you feel. Suddenly, another person comes, a person that possesses a similar character as you are, and really hoping an attention from your friends, what would you feel? Do you mind sharing? Play a role as a caring and understanding noble human being? Hard isn't it?

Plus, you are the one who always begging for sympathy, suddenly has to spread joy and happiness.

I believe different person has his one unique personality, regardless it is good, bad, noble, annoying or irritating. We have to accept them just the way they are. Yet, some bad characters cannot be retained in oneself, for the sake of one’s future.

Some may be born with silver spoon- parents are well enough to fulfil their desires, financially. Others may have to face difficulties in their lives- struggling to gain whatever they wanted.

Some may be neglected- Bad upbringing, less love and care is given. Some may be badly spoiled- cultivating bad character and bad influences cause them to be self centred, for instance.

They are all human being that once had a pure heart, it is just they are using it makes all the different. Every child needs the basic element of life, LOVE, CARE, SYMPATHY, JOY, SADNESS, ATTENTION, ANGER, and JEALOUSY....Indicating perfection in human creation. 

We need each other to live.

Sometimes we may feel that is it hard to accept a stranger in our life, a stranger that comes out of nowhere, jump into our circle of joy- as I call it...Just give him a chance, a hope...soon we will realise that he is the one that was meant for us, soon you will discover the two of you are truly something to each other, you share your thoughts and feelings so relaxed, so openly, and right away you know your friendship is truly meant to be...

whatever you give to life,

it gives you back,

the hatred which comes out from you will someday come back to you

love others, and love will come back to you...

Last days of A Level, last breath of college life...really gonna miss it very very much.

Remember~

I'm happy having u guys, yet I'm pity u guys for having me

disappointment......again

15.11.2011-the day I shall remember forever

At first I’m not feeling like writing on this blog today, as I describe it as the worst day ever. Yet, I think I should share something that might keep you all as a warning next time.

First, do not lend your limited money to someone you barely know, chiefly to your 5-minutes friend, as I describe it. I think I shared it before my experience, lending money to one African guy-liar shall i call him-claiming to be brother in Islam; helping each other depicts an honourable act but magically vanish with my RM400 worth of money. Well, accidentally I met him while I was walking to the mosque on one fine Friday afternoon-after millions idle phone calls were made by me...

He: Excuse me, is this the way to Sunway Pyramid?

Me-Tremendously shocked momentarily: Yes.....and I remember you! You are the one who borrowed 400 ringgit from me!

He-Pretend to deny strongly: Are you sure, am I the right person? You are not mistaken? Who’s the name of the guy borrowing your money?

Me: Hafiz-as I was told last time

He-good actor: no, my name is Hakim... I think you got the wrong person. Is this the way to Sunway Pyramid? - Technique to change topic I guess...

As he was really damn good with his acting, just let it be. Hakim? What the heck! Hurm...

Well, despite you may look kind, good, and kind-hearted, never let other people to take advantage on you. Be wise. You should ask for identification card or so called ID or anything that enable you to claim your money in the future-Oh God, how come I never thought of that before!

Besides, today has been a very very bad, disappointing and devastating day for me. Just imagine that you have been working really hard, burning the midnight oil every day until you fallen asleep on your table or on your chair, memorising the subject that suppose to be understood, skip important dinner or lunch just to have extra study hours, yet ending up making the most silly mistake that would ever been made by a humankind-forgot to answer the exam question correctly due to recklessness not reading the instruction carefully-what could be worse than that!

Plus, this exam is really, tremendously important that will certainly decide your future, yet you spoiled it...

What actually happen was, I forgot to answer another one essay for my economics paper-resulting a total of 25marks gone!-yup, just like that! Now, my hope of getting A already crushed into pieces, and still gasping for a B.

I was very sure that I only need to answer only one essay-nope, I was totally wrong! I wish I had the power to turn the time back...but, yeah....that was not possible.

Yet, thanks a lot to my mates that lighten up some hope that I can still get a B, thus Inshaallah enable me to fly...Thanks a lot mates!

Well, study hard and smart for your exam, be hardworking.....but, know your exam format well! ~END OF CHAPTER ONE-hopefully there is no more coming chapters...

I'm happy having u guys, yet I'm pity u guys for having me

Learning to be a better person

Someone may ask you, college life compared to high school life, which one is better?

Me? The best of high school life was during the 3 weeks of SPM period. That was the time; I was really closed to my friends. We had all the freedoms that anyone in a boarding school would look forward to. No long schooling hours, stayed up late, release tension by swimming in the forbidden swimming pool, that initiated me to learn how to swim.. first time celebrating Hari Raya Haji together, coz the raya was in the middle of exam week, went out at night without permission...well some were caught, despite we were in the midst of SPM, I could hardly feel any tension or distress. Yet, the sad part was to say goodbye.....

But, college life is lots more exciting, fun, new, different, adventurous, inspiring and memorable. I may not have the desire to seek any freedom as I’m free to do whatever I want yet, college life thought me a lot of stuffs. Mingling with a broadly diversified people, wading variety of hard circumstances, experiencing lots of sad and joyous times, discovering great friends.. these added colours to my dull life. Initially, I was really a shy and timing person when came to mingling and mixing around, yet Alhamdulillah all the nightmares were not as bad as before.

In life we have a lot of ups and downs, but never give up.

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 “I always think that we should not be too happy in life. I presume that too much laughter, cause us to forget who we really are. We may tend to do something wrong or hurt someone else. Yet, in the contrary, being sad may remind us to the extent of our

limit. However, I think this is a wrong principle, I guess.... isn't it?”

Someone taught me....

In life we should be spreading love and hope. Put God at the first place, others second and yourself afterwards. Your friends or even those who are close to you may feel despair or losing hope and even sad sometimes, try to put yourself in their shoes, be a good listener or console them. Tell them whatever you wanna hear if you are in their position. 

If you can’t, your present there is sufficient to indicate that you are care.

Some may afraid that by putting other before oneself, is not a win-win situation. Perhaps we are the one crawling on the floor gasping for hope and no one care, yet that surely will not gonna happen. I’ve seen those who inspiring others are the one that the others care most. This may sound really hard and seem like a huge accountability, but there is no harm of trying right?

Try to accept others just the way they are. We may hate someone coz they are annoying, irritating or any other reasons. Yet, in fact we are imperfect. That are their weaknesses, and we also have ours. If you want others to accept your weakness, why you cannot do the same? It seems unfair. Try not to start hatred in your heart. I know it may seem really hard; indeed it is... it is best if you can evade it. Indeed, I also hated someone and frequently I tried to avoid him, tried not to eat with him, be around him....but he kept on showing up. So, I know how it feels to love someone that you hate.

But, I’m learning to be a better person.

I’m learning to be closer to You

I’m learning to put hatred aside

I’m learning to put myself in other’s shoes

I’m learning to avoid sadness and despair 

I’m learning to appreciate others

I’m learning to love others

I’m learning to show care and concern

I’m learning to communicate easily

I’m learning to be grateful

I’m learning to accept others just the way they are

I’m learning to stop being jealous

I’m learning to heal myself

I’m learning to abandon bad habits

I’m learning to cheer up others

I’m learning to built long lasting friendship

I’m learning to be more discipline

I’m learning to learn from mistake

I’m learning not to judge people

I’m learning to share

I’m learning to explain what I’m feeling

I’m learning to light up hope in myself

I’m learning to be myself

I'm learning to smile

I'm learning to be positive

I’m learning to be abstinence

I’m learning to be more careful to whom I’m lending my money! haha

I’m learning to flee

I’m learning to be like you.... And till now, I’m still learning...

Dear Friend,

Every time I hold you I begin to understand, that everything about you tells me you're my best friend. I believe there is no distance too far between best friends, for friendship gives wings to the heart. 

Healing, a simple act of kindness brings such meaning

A smile can change a life let’s start believing

And feeling, let’s start healing

Heal and you will be healed

Break every border

Give and you will receive

Hearts in the hand of another heart and in God’s hand are all hearts

An eye takes care of another eye and from God’s eye nothing hides

Seek only to give and you’ll receive

So, heal and you will be healed