A Stranger......

The blazing sun was shining throughout the cloudless sky. The coldness after the rain was slowly overtaken by warmth of the sunlight. I was sitting alone in a bench at the balcony studying law at the corner quietly. Sometimes my eyes looked at a glimpse the couples sitting there chatting blissfully to each other. Out of a sudden, an African guy was walking hesitantly towards me with a warm smile on his face. Without much thinking I smiled back at him.” Assalamualaikum” he said...

“Waalaikumsalam” I replied despite I never expected that he was a muslim.

“Can I sit beside you?”... “Yes”. I responded instantaneously.

“Are you a muslim?” He asked. Once again I replied the same answer.

“Are you?” I started to ask question. “Ya ya.. I am. I just came from the surau praying. I know it is not the time yet to pray” he answered when I started to look at my watch.

“Are you fasting?” “Yes I am”... I replied without any suspicion.

“Oh, I thought that you are a Chinese because you look so fair and only Chinese who mostly be wearing those thing on their teeth”

I just laughed to his statement as I thought he was trying to make friend with me. I not even bother to think more than that. 

“Actually I have a problem. I need to go to international airport, KLIA to catch my flight at 2pm. My car got some engine problems and cannot be started. I need to go back to my hometown to meet my mother. But, I don’t have any money. I went to the surau just now to pray so that Allah will help me and I keep on telling myself that I should not cry as there will be someone who will help me”

“Where are you from?” I asked despite he had not yet finished his sentences.

“I’m from Liverpool, UK. I was born there”...

“I thought you are from Africa because....” I didn’t finish my words as I guess he knew what I meant. He laughed afterwards.

“I used all my money to buy the flight ticket, The Emirates. It cost me RM800 and now I have no money. I need to see my mother there and then she will give me money. But, I don’t know how much it costs to go to the airport. As I know my luggage cost me RM200 and they are already there. Can you help me to pay for my taxi and luggage? We are muslim thus we are brother. Can you help me? On Monday I’ll be coming back and I’ll pay you. This is Ramadhan, masyaallah. Inshaallah, Allah will repay you. Today is my day; next time maybe I’ll help you”

I really did know what the feeling that time was. I just felt delighted to help him. Perhaps because of the fact that I had sufficient money in my bank, plus it was Ramadhan, it encouraged me to lend him a hand. Swiftly, I said.... ‘Yes, why not”

“Assalamualaikum” he said. I interpreted it as; let peace be upon you, as he was absolutely grateful for my willingness to help him. I just smiled.

Moments later I followed him to find a taxi in order to ask about the price. Soon, I found out that his name was Hafiz. We also managed to exchange phone number. Along the way he told me that he did not want my money as my money was nothing to him. The fact that he was using pound in his home country and all he asked was for me to pray for his life.

The taxi driver told him that it cost RM60 to airport. However, he didn’t believe it. Perhaps he was expecting that it might cost more than that as he never took a cab before.

On the way to the ATM machine, we had some more chat. He was telling me that he was studying ACCA and it was really hard. He stayed at the Lagoon View and perhaps one day he wish to take me there and break the fast together. He was really grateful that I was willing to help him. Eventually, I ended up lending him money RM400!

I told my friends what had happened. Their jaws dropped. They scolded me for being so naive and blindly be so kind-hearted to a stranger. Even my lecturer who was overheard the conversation made an astound expression. Yet, I strongly believed that I could recover the money. I relied on Allah and I trusted him.

As time passed, I waited for him to call me on Monday, sadly he didn’t. The next day, I called him and surprisingly he picked up. It came to my knowledge that he was now in India and will be back to Malaysia in forth night. I wished he was telling the truth. The fact that I was able to contact him using my Malaysian number and it only cost me less than 30 cent, for more that 1 minute talk, made it sounded fishy.

Besides, the fact that he didn’t even say sorry for not be able to pay on time or even tried to contact me made me felt disappointed. I trust him 100%. I pray that he will keep to his promise.

I learnt my lesson..

                                                              hope?

despairnomore~

I just realised......

Assalamualaikum wbt..

I was very disappointed when I got my AS results despite I achieved 3A’s, and 1B. The fact that I was the only one among the scholars who didn’t get all A made me felt tremendously sad. To be frank, I was hoping to get all A and at least be the same level as others. Upon seeing my best friends getting awesome results made me felt jealous and in grieve. I remembered a quote saying, “being at the bottom is sad enough, yet seeing your best friend at the top made you feel worse”. Accordingly, for the whole day I was in the sad mood.

Verily, a friend in need is a friend indeed. They tried to comfort me and told me not to feel sad over it. It took me quite a long time to digest it. Thankfully, now I realised....

Comparing will only leads to despair and sadness. There is no doubt that comparing with others will only cause disappointment. In fact, you are not competing with anyone rather that to yourself indeed. Especially the one that you are comparing with is your best friend, in which you are supposed to be happy for...

Getting 3As are good enough. You may hear that others are getting more than that, and that is the reality. We have to embrace that there will be someone who is lots better than us. Surely, if we had done our best, there is nothing to be cried for. I know we may feel dissatisfied, yet do know that the key is to be grateful. I strongly believe that God will grant us success proportionately to our effort. In fact there is a lot other things to be grateful for; health, financial sustainability, good life, peace, good education and even friendship.

Every cloud has its own silver lining. I’m totally grateful for getting a B for math. Despite initially I feel discontented, but sooner or later I feel lots better. Thanks to my friends who help me t get over it. What I’m trying to say here is, getting a B do thought me a lot of stuffs. It makes me realised that friends are always there to help you, chiefly your best friends. Besides, I start to feel more grateful in life. God gives me a very awesome, remarkable, marvellous best friends in which all this while I hardly appreciate them and an opportunity to know my weaknesses. Alhamdulillah. Thus, never give up as true failure only exist if we throw in the towel.

Everybody falls   sometimes,

Gotta find the strength to rise,

From the ashes and make a new beginning.

This week also I managed to settle my application for universities. Hopefully, I’ll get offers from the universities that I wanted to go. But most crucial, hopefully I can get the most satisfying and gratifying result for my A-levels and pass the requirements to study abroad. Inshaallah.

1.       Australia National University

2.       University of Adelaide

3.       University of Queensland and

4.       University of New South Wales

Hopefully I can get the offer from one of those universities. Please pray for my success. My best friend always say “just do all the best in everything and God will help you”.

despairnomore~

bEliEf

May we ALL be blessed by Allah, Take this month of Ramadhan as a golden gateway to be  closer to Allah and seek for His forgiveness :) Assalamualaikum wbt.. Actually , I've been writing nowadays and one of them sounded like this~ what kind of friendship is this? When it is all about me. What kind of friendship is this? I it is all up to me. I'm the one who start the first step, all the time asking how are you? have you taken your dinner? have you arrived? What kind of friendship is this? When she keep on calling you, asking this and that, yet, she never did the same to me. Instead I'm the one who called you guys, asking this and that. Sometimes I'm wonder, will you ever text and ask me; How are you today? Have you arrived from your hometown? What are you doing now? yet, I'm still waiting patiently.. :) because, all I need is BELIEF.. Yup, I know that it sounded terrible.. :D I wonder how J.K Rowling was able to come out with such impressive novels.. Results are coming out soon. I just hope for the best. Well I did my best and I've put my best foot forward. Whatever it is, It is all from Allah... and I'm grateful for it.. Alhamdulillah.. Sadness and despair I honestly cannot deny, as a normal human w'll surely sometimes feel disappointed if we cannot achieve what we want most. Most probably I'll feel the same. However, just remember..God has plan for everything, just be a grateful servant.. :) Inshaallah everything gonna be fine. Please pray for my success.. :) Aminnn

despairnomore~

Updates On mE

fuh, Im quite shocked that i've not been writing in this blog for quite a long time.
Admittedly, I don't have much posts here :(


IElTs
I just sit for my ielts 2 weeks ago. It was OK only la, yet I missed some points during listening. Second passage for reading was a bit hard, it took me 10 minutes to understand fully what was it all about. Meanwhile, I just wrote what I can for writing. Most important, I did my best. The result will be out within 13 days, precisely on 12 of August. Inshaallah, just pray for the best. 


AS
The result will be out this coming Wednesday. It was a very important exam as it determines whether I'm qualified to go oversea. We are suppose to check it online that day, however I plan to check it a day after. So that I don't have to answer them what my result was. :D


Ramadhan
Today is the 4th day of fasting. Since the first day, I broke my fast at home. I bought foods from college before I went back home. Selamat berpuase semue! May this Ramadhan we are able to change ourselves and be closer to Allah. Amin~


This month two of my friends are going to US, congrats to them. All the best there... hopefully I can go oversea also one day.. :)

despairnomore~