Assalamualaikum wbt
استغفرالله العظيم
Forgive me ya Allah
استغفرالله العظيم
Please forgive me once again ya Allah
استغفرالله العظيم
Once again I ask your forgiveness oh Allah. Hope you are never bored in forgiving me.
The tutorial almost came to an end.
She opened the floor for any question and started asking us one by one.
"Jason, do you have any question?"
"Nope" he responded quickly.
"Hafizul, do you have any question?"
" erk....no" it took me a while thinking whether I had any doubt on the subject.
"Are you sure?" She was such a demanding tutor.
"Yeah"
"I'm not convinced. Meet me after this"
"Oh man, not again" I whispered.
Early of this year she introduced herself as Kyung Yoo. She was an elderly woman who sometimes funny and strict yet caring.
“This is the way I show care to my students, there's no point telling them that they are good but actually they are not" she lectured me right after everybody left.
By the way she looked and her English, there was no doubt that she was a Korean, but working for both Uni Adelaide and UniSA as a law tutor.
To be frank, I and Jason were terrible in Law, but few weeks later Jason was crossed out of the list, leaving me behind. Maybe he showed some improvements or because he hardly asked any questions afterward.
"Hafizul and Jason, you guys didn't study. There is no point having an appointment with me if you didn't do your part" She argued when I requested an appointment with her weeks ago.
Honestly, I didn't really study much for law. Yet, I still pushed myself to go for lectures or listened to online recording, a day before the tute. Apparently, it wasn't enough. I put all the blame on myself.
Right from the beginning of semester I failed to manage my time properly. Procrastination had permanently been written onto my to-do list.
Sometimes, it crossed my mind that I wanted to prove she was wronged about me. I still believed that there was chance for me to shine in this subject, despite as we went deeper into topics, it confused me. Yet, In sha Allah.
But, there were no point of pleasing her. After all she was just a mortal human similar to me and you. Perhaps, she had a conflict of interest to maintain her reputation as a tutor. * Duty to avoid conflict of interest was under s181 and s182 of the Corporation Act fyi. Hurm, my law wasn't that bad afterall. Haha. * By the way, it appeared to me pleasing Allah is the best choice.
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If I studied just to prove to someone that I was good, at the end I might got what I wanted, but on the side of Allah I gained nothing, just tiredness.
It was true that success it a rizq from Allah and everything has been decided even before we were created. Success and failure had been written. The pen had been lifted and the ink had dried. But we never knew what our fate was before it happened.
Islam was not a deen of magic. Hardly would we succeed if we didn't put our best foot forward and started aiming for it. By sleeping and watching Korean drama would never promise you a success ahead. * Disclaimer for those who extremely genius beyond reasonable doubt* apparently we need to work and start doing something.
“Why should I work hard if it had been written for me?" Some might be asking this question.
It was extremely true that the end product was already out and waiting to happen. But do know that the knowledge of Allah was superior and beyond ours. We may though we had choices in life. We could choose either watching the heart warming" winter sonata" or the fierce “fast and furious 6". Indeed those choices had been covered by the knowledge of Allah. He knew you would watch “winter sonata" alone in your room, on your bed, cried badly that even a box of tissue wasn't enough to dry your tears.
By the same token, He knew that you would embark an effort to work or not and the outcome would highly based on it. If it turned out otherwise, do knew Allah knew better for you.
The main reason for all these effort was merely to gain rewards from Allah.
If the cake was certain to be edible and awesome. Then, the mixing and baking were the one being rewarded by Him.
Similarly, if the outcome was certain, then our struggles were the one that may be rewarded, if we followed His path and did sincerely for Him.
So whoever does an atom's weight of good will see it
And whoever does an atom's weight of evil will see it. (99:7-8)
In sha Allah, in the day of judgement, even a simple and small tiny good deed will be accounted by Allah, and likewise.
Thus, those who are, were or will be struggling for finals, ALL THE BEST. Make dua' to Him as He will hear you. Remember, never worry about the outcome as He has decided something that will bring us closer to Him and the best for us. But, do embark to struggle and make sure your boxes of reward are full in the end.
It was true that success it a rizq from Allah and everything has been decided even before we were created. Success and failure had been written. The pen had been lifted and the ink had dried. But we never knew what our fate was before it happened.
Islam was not a deen of magic. Hardly would we succeed if we didn't put our best foot forward and started aiming for it. By sleeping and watching Korean drama would never promise you a success ahead. * Disclaimer for those who extremely genius beyond reasonable doubt* apparently we need to work and start doing something.
“Why should I work hard if it had been written for me?" Some might be asking this question.
It was extremely true that the end product was already out and waiting to happen. But do know that the knowledge of Allah was superior and beyond ours. We may though we had choices in life. We could choose either watching the heart warming" winter sonata" or the fierce “fast and furious 6". Indeed those choices had been covered by the knowledge of Allah. He knew you would watch “winter sonata" alone in your room, on your bed, cried badly that even a box of tissue wasn't enough to dry your tears.
By the same token, He knew that you would embark an effort to work or not and the outcome would highly based on it. If it turned out otherwise, do knew Allah knew better for you.
The main reason for all these effort was merely to gain rewards from Allah.
If the cake was certain to be edible and awesome. Then, the mixing and baking were the one being rewarded by Him.
Similarly, if the outcome was certain, then our struggles were the one that may be rewarded, if we followed His path and did sincerely for Him.
So whoever does an atom's weight of good will see it
And whoever does an atom's weight of evil will see it. (99:7-8)
In sha Allah, in the day of judgement, even a simple and small tiny good deed will be accounted by Allah, and likewise.
Thus, those who are, were or will be struggling for finals, ALL THE BEST. Make dua' to Him as He will hear you. Remember, never worry about the outcome as He has decided something that will bring us closer to Him and the best for us. But, do embark to struggle and make sure your boxes of reward are full in the end.
Remember, after all study is just a fraction of life :)
In sha Allah, my first paper next week will be law. Please pray for my success and may Allah reward and done similarly to you.
In sha Allah, my first paper next week will be law. Please pray for my success and may Allah reward and done similarly to you.
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Last week I had my last tutorial with her.
At the end, she was calling my classmates’ names.
‘I know you guys wouldn’t have any trouble in Law” she added at the end.
“Did she just skipped us or she totally forgotten our names?” I told Jason.
I was sitting next to Dacklyen, one of the smartest in our class and no doubt she was looking at me earlier.
“Hafizul and Jason, you two are in trouble” Now all my thoughts were cleared.
As usual, she would be asking us if there was any question.
“Hafizul, do you have any question?”
“Nope” I answered instantaneously.
“Are you sure?”
She smiled and we all laughed.
