Mother

There is no other great word to begin with rather than

بسم الله ‎

Seek calmness in life by remembering Him

It rained again in Adelaide today, as predicted by the weather forecast's technology. The sun was blocked by dark cloud since this morning, coating the earth with traces of gloomy cold scenery. Despite it was 11am, there was still no sign the sun would pop out brightly. There was an absolute silent in the house, enabling the second-clock-needle ticking louder than usual. “Time is running faster than I ever imagine” my thought started to whisper. Frankly, my desire to sleep was strong, yet the thought of the mountain-fill assignments and test killed the intention.

For me, my mum had always been a great cook. Despite she never knows how to cook the fancy western cuisines, yet her cooking was always a delightful delicacy, a rhythm to my nose and song to my hunger. Been here created an enormous longing of me to her cooking. I had always missed the simple fried cabbage that she used to make. Despite it sounded extremely easy, yet I never cared and knew how to prepare it. Yet, today I took the risk of trying it, and for that reasons I took the tram heading to Central Market, where most Asian ingredients were sold. I hardly recalled what it was made of; yet ended up buying some anchovies, dried shrimps, chilies and cabbage. The aroma was 90% similar to the one that I used to smell, yet the taste was something different. I couldn't even know what to name the weird food that I invented.  Yet, eating it kept reminding me of her. I was in homesick mode I guessed.

I went to a boarding school since I was 12, “too young to depart far from family” my mother said. She refused to send me away initially, yet eventually she allowed it after unexpected interference from my school teachers. “I always tried not to miss you a lot, I scared you would cried there” she told me. I knew what she meant. She strongly believed that if we miss someone, that person would always remember us. Yet, I did cry a lot there. I missed home so badly. I remembered writing a diary of what I felt when I was in form 1, yet ended up burning it, scared my mom would discover it, and I never forgot praying to God that I would be able to go home safely in my next school holiday.

The endless love and care

She always had been a caring mother. Although sometimes I tended to ignore to whatever she was saying, I knew I was wrong and I believed she wished nothing but the best for her son. I called her once a week. “Be a good man there, don’t forget your study and always look after your health and safety” she said. Even once, she told me to be careful when crossing the roads. Remarkably, that was how loving my mother could be.

She used to be a strong and energetic mother, yet as time passed she slowly losing her strength and youth. Now she was getting old. She used to tell me her teenager’s life. On how she and my uncles and unties worked on the paddy field with my fierce grandfather in order to support their daily spending. On how she kept being strong despite some people tried to demean her and how she struggled just to provide a proper and good upbringing to her children. Deeply I knew, she had gone through throw many hardships in her life. I always remember her words, “When you grown up, don’t put your wife more than your mother or even thinking of sending me the old folks house” I would never, I promised.

She getting old when we are growing up

Yet, sometimes we took our mother or even our father for granted. We forgot that as we are growing up, they are getting older. We always want the best for ourselves, yet we forgot that they too need intention and love. We keep on asking and demanding, but we never give. We sometimes feel angry with them unreasonably, yet they are sometimes angry on us, nothing but purely with good intention and care. There is nothing more joyful for them, than to see their children are successful. We should learn to love, appreciate and be grateful to Allah for choosing them as our beloved mother and father.

I’m sorry mum if I did any mistakes, and deeply I love you forever. May Allah protect and bless you with good health, strong iman and taqwa. As for dad, forgive my mistakes. May Allah protects and bless you with good health, strong iman and taqwa as well.  May under His continuous blessing, we are always together in happiness, joy and love. Amin.

Love you mother now, today and forever.

That's all for now. Take care till then. Jazakallahkhayran for reading this.

Love and care

There is no other great word to begin with rather than

بسم الله ‎

Because of the rain, we learn to appreciate warmth

I'm learning

to be Your better servant

to be a good and obedient son

to be a good friend

to be a better person. 

Everybody has a common similarity; we only have 24 hours in a day. No matter how high is your education, no one can invent a time machine or come out with an equation to reverse it, it would continuously move. Obviously, we can’t control the situation, but we can always adjust and take in charge of ourselves. Allocate time wisely and perform our daily obligation in focus and khusyuk. 

The birds fly freely in the sky and nothing could stop them, rather than Him

I'm sometimes lose the battle and cross the boundary. Plus further defeated as the foes chain me to this vicious cycle of unbreakable lures.

Yet, life is full of blessings and Allah does care about us. He channels all the cares and love via your father as he gives you money for your daily expenditure, perhaps your mother as she cooks delicious meals for your lunch nor dinner, or through your friends as the help you in the time of trouble and cheer you up upon your sadness. All those food, time and helps originated from Him. Frankly, as human we rarely appreciate what we have. We hardly be thankful for the eyes that enable us to see our reflection on the mirror, the arms that reach for food when we were hungry and even the ears that channel the sound of birds chirping and the river flowing. Perhaps it never crossed our minds. 

We feel life is all about self satisfaction and success. 

Once a curious boy asked his teacher,

"You told me that if I study well, I'm able to go to the high school. Get a great result there and step into the university's life. Successfully graduated, get married and by 60s I'm gonna have a great and good job, plus above all, I'm successful"

"But, how if I died at 40s, or during my degree nor when I'm in high school. Do I still considered to be successful?"

The teacher was speechless...

Even the smallest creature on earth is under His care

A retold story...

Once there was a leader of thieves, they were in a jungle, waiting for any caravan to travel pass the thick forest.

"I'll climb to the top of highest tree and look whether there is any caravan nearby" the leader spoke.

So, he climbed. Yet, he saw a blind snake with wide-open-mouth on top of the tree, and a squirrel came and fed the snake. He was shocked. He told his followers, "We are stealing and threatening others to support and stay a life. Verily Allah is the most loving and caring. Even the blind snake is perfectly well under His care.  By the same token, I believe Allah will always care and look after us well. This cruelty is indeed unnecessary” He made his taubat which was eventually followed by others. 

 Thus, by the same token, He would always forgive His servant that repented sincerely. 

That's for now. Take care till then. Jazakallah khayran for reading this. 

Once we were kids

There is no other great word to begin with rather than

بسم الله ‎

No one can ever predict the kind of blessing that he is getting today. 

I presume life is useless if we never learn anything new. It is disappointing after a long and tiring walk, we come home with empty handed. 

I’ve always believe that, one of the signs depicting Allah's intention for us to change and be better is by making us mingle and be in the midst of good companions and friends. The friend who always remind and guide us to successively improving ourselves, be kind and humble, and be positive in every actions and situations. Indeed, friends that keep reminding us of Him, are truly the best people to be bonded with. 

We once brave and strong walking through this long temporary life. 

Once we were kid and we thought everything was possible. We had a dream of becoming a superman and simply tied a red blanket around the shoulder. Swiftly, we stood in front of a standing moving fan and the blanket waved, as if we were flying high up in the open sky. Sometimes we climbed up to the top of a tree, not knowing that we might fell. Yet, we strongly believed that we were able and ultimately experiencing joy and satisfaction as we were looking far to the borderless scenery. Despite now it sounds silly, yet we simply made it happened. 

Back then, we never have any doubts and hesitation in reaching our goals and aims. However, as we are growing older, we think and exposed too much. Things seem to be a little different. We start to sprout doubt and sometimes believe that we could never make it. In the middle, someone might  lost hope and touch from Him, and swiftly thinking of ending the misery with an easy way. Some had a brilliant and excellent idea, yet keeping it silent. Hunted by fear to express themselves and thinking that people might be laughing and treating it as nonsense. Some have the best opportunity to make new friends, yet it slips away due to strong hesitation and fear to say, Hi!. 

Dream high and never scare to fall, surely you will fall on the highest tree. 

Truly in life we need to be firm and brave. Everyday we are flooded with decisions and choices. Sometimes we doubt the decision we made, we feel hesitate on whether to go on or abandon the mission and we expect the worst, yet the result appear to be better. I believe, everyone has his or her own struggles and hardships in life. Remember when you were a kid, you smiled to every problems, you keep on moving despite knowing you may fall and you did it without any doubts. All it takes is just to believe. 

One of His majestic and mesmerizing creation to ponder on.

  

Satan is the true enemy of humankind. They presence in every single act we are doing. They often come to our thought, preventing us from doing good deeds. Some are strong and swiftly eradicates the bad acts and move on to reflecting the consequences and guilty impact. Yet, some are neither strong nor weak, they struggle for a moment before the chains break. But, some do struggle initially yet bit by bit fallen to the devastating valley. Indeed satan is always a determined foe. But, once failed, they pursue us to start delaying the good deeds. Waking up late for Fajr or tremendously obsess with assignments and homework, causing us to pray at the very last minute. 

But,once failed, the satan whisper to us, "You are not showing off with all the deeds you are doing, you are just simply teaching people to follow you, so that they will learn and make you as a role model." Thus, we might feel being appreciated a bit and start doing it in the presence of others. But,once failed, they make us to do it fast. Therefore, we start to pray in a hurry coz we are busy and we loss the soul of our deeds and ibadah. 

But,once failed, the satan induce us to compare our ibadah with others. We start to think, "look at me, I memorized more surah than him or he doesn't pray, rest assured hell fire is his eternity home." Despite we ain't showing it, we think we are in higher standard than the commons. But,once failed, they make us lost the best. We may good in qiamullail, yet we often miss the fajr. Truly, the satan is far more innovative and idealistic than human being. 

Just by injecting simple thought, our ibadah is spoiled. Indeed, by just possessing a vulnerable and fragile heart, we are exposed to countless dangers. So, always remember death and rely an His ultimate protection. Be strict to self and tame the fierce nafs within us. Inshaallah, only to Him we put the hopes and guidance. . 

Do not let your difficulties fill you with anxiety, after all it is only in the darkest night that the stars shine more brilliantly. ~Ali Ibn Abi Thalib, karamallahu wajhah.

 Lets us be racing in giving charity and sadaqah, indeed the best charity are from those in time of ease and hardship, when we feel burdened and stingy, once the fear of poverty is hunting us and when we gather wealth purely with intention be become rich. 

The best person is the one who is able to control his anger, forgive his mistake and do good to him. lets us live like an apple tree. Despite others are throwing stones to us, we respond by  throwing red and sweet apples to them. 

That's all for now. Take care till then. Jazakallah khayran for reading this.