sayonara skuter kuning!

Bismillah

Assalamualaikum wbt

Suatu ketika dahulu, kala kau gagah sekali. 

Sudah lama jari jemari ini tidak berlegar di butang-butang keyboard, bermain kata-kata. Moga curahan kali ini, in sha Allah mudah dan memberi manfaat kepada diri dan insan-insan yang tergerak membaca. :)

Semenjak Honda Today lumpuh tiada mampu bergerak, sudah jauh kaki ini berkhidmat melangkah sehari hari. Turun naik bukit Manuel, pergi dan balik university. Dari pagi, matahari terik meninggi, sehingga pekat malam. Kadang kadang gentar hati melangkah dalam kelam malam, namun aku berlindung kepada Tuhan, dari kejahatan malam apabila telah gelap gelita. Kalau bukan dek kerna tarbiyyah dalam diri, sudah lama aku menjerit lari balik lintang pukang.

Disebalik kesusahan ini, tersimpul seribu tarbiyyah untuk diri kerdil ini.

Ketika membelek muka buku, pernah membaca suatu kisah.

Seorang buruh binaan sedang sibuk bekerja di tingkat paling bawah, kawasan pembinaan 10 tingkat apartment. Tiba-tiba jatuh syiling sedolar dari atas, melekat di lopak pasir tepat di hadapan matanya. Lalu dia kutip, pantas masuk ke dalam saku seluar. Selang beberapa ketika, sedolar lagi jatuh, tanpa terpinga, terus dikutip masuk ke dalam saku seluar. Begitu jua, situasinya untuk beberapa detik.

Sebenarnya, bos dia di tingkat 8 terpekik memanggilnya, namun sayu suaranya kedengaran di bingit pembinaan. Lantas di jatuhkan syiling agar dapat mencuit pekerjanya di bawah, namun sebaliknya berlaku. Lantas, mula di jatuhkannya butir-butir batu kecil mengenai badan si dia, satu persatu. Sedikit sakit dan kehairanan, menjenguk si dia ke atas, menyedari kehadiran bosnya di atas sedang memanggil. *tamat*

Mungkin cerita ini versi pendek dan lurus ke titik (baca: straight to the point). Namun, mudah untuk direfleksi kepada hidup ini.

Setelah, nikmat-nikmat Allah turunkan untuk diri seorang ini, mungkin aku mula lupa akan hakikat kehidupan seorng hamba. Luaran mungkin hebat, tetapi hati Allah sahaja yang tahu akan hakikat turun naiknya iman. Bila Allah cabut satu nikmat yang kita sayangi, maka tersentap hati seorang ini. Bahawa, buah epal yang manis itu tidak wujud semata-mata kerna pohon yg sihat, tetapi ada pencipta yang mengawal kesuburan dan kitaran hidup pohon itu. Hakikat hidup tidak lari dari mengembalikan kesyukuran dan pergantungan kepada Allah, Tuhan sekalian Alam.

Alangkah silapnya kita jika menyangka musibah itu suatu 'bad luck' untuk diri. Mungkin diri ini tidak pernah merasa hilangnya sesuatu yang besar, namun insan yang bulat-bulat percaya kepada Allah tidak pernah putus asa dari rahmatnya. Bahkan mereka itu yang memperoleh keampunan dan rahmat dari Tuhannya, mereka itu jua yang akan mendapat petunjuk. In sha Allah.

وَلَنَبْلُوَنَّكُم بِشَيْءٍ مِّنَ الْخَوْفِ وَالْجُوعِ وَنَقْصٍ مِّنَ الْأَمْوَالِ وَالْأَنفُسِ وَالثَّمَرَاتِ وَبَشِّرِ الصَّابِرِينَ

Be sure we shall test you with something of fear and hunger, some loss in goods or lives or the fruits (of your toil), but give glad tidings to those who patiently persevere

الَّذِينَ إِذَا أَصَابَتْهُم مُّصِيبَةٌ قَالُوا إِنَّا لِلَّهِ وَإِنَّا إِلَيْهِ رَاجِعُونَ

Who say, when afflicted with calamity: "To Allah We belong, and to Him is our return"

أُولَٰئِكَ عَلَيْهِمْ صَلَوَاتٌ مِّن رَّبِّهِمْ وَرَحْمَةٌ وَأُولَٰئِكَ هُمُ الْمُهْتَدُونَ

They are those on whom (Descend) blessings from Allah, and Mercy, and they are the ones that receive guidance.

Al Baqarah:155-157

Melangkah jua kaki ini melalui jalan-jalan yang suram, hanya berteman lampu malam sekadar penerang jalan, Alhamdulillah, dalam kesunyian ini, tidak semena-mena membuat daguku mendongak ke langit. Melihat dada langit malam dan seluruh penciptaanNya yang sempurna.

terpikir, bilakah kali terakhir kita mendapat ketenangan yang asli, melihat keluasan ciptaanNya? Bukan berteman lagu-lagu terapi mendamaikan, tetapi benar-benar membuka mata melihat sekeliling.

إِنَّ فِي خَلْقِ السَّمَاوَاتِ وَالْأَرْضِ وَاخْتِلَافِ اللَّيْلِ وَالنَّهَارِ لَآيَاتٍ لِّأُولِي الْأَلْبَابِ

Behold! in the creation of the heavens and the earth, and the alternation of night and day,- there are indeed Signs for men of understanding. (3:190)

Moga tiada lagi kita berduka akan nasib diri. Moga tiada rintihan di kala pagi dan petang. In sha Allah, kita berdoa agar Allah memberi kita kemudahan, kesenangan dan kejayaan dunia serta akhirat. Berkat usaha yang gigih dan tawakal yang sebenar, Allah mengurniakan dan lengkapkan nikmatnya ke atas setiap hamba-hambaNya. :)

In sha Allah, pengganti is on the way. :p

Indeed, it is just a fraction of life

Bismillah
Assalamualaikum wbt

استغفرالله العظيم

Forgive me ya Allah

استغفرالله العظيم

Please forgive me once again ya Allah

استغفرالله العظيم

Once again I ask your forgiveness oh Allah. Hope you are never bored in forgiving me.

The class was very small. 20 of us had to sit closely to be able to write on the table. To make thing worse, the petite fan on the ceiling wasn't working well and we had to let the door open or we might be dying on the floor suffocated. I was sitting next to Jason, one of my good friends here.

The tutorial almost came to an end.

She opened the floor for any question and started asking us one by one.

"Jason, do you have any question?"

"Nope" he responded quickly.

"Hafizul, do you have any question?"

" erk....no" it took me a while thinking whether I had any doubt on the subject.

"Are you sure?" She was such a demanding tutor.

"Yeah"

"I'm not convinced. Meet me after this"

"Oh man, not again" I whispered.

Early of this year she introduced herself as Kyung Yoo. She was an elderly woman who sometimes funny and strict yet caring.

“This is the way I show care to my students, there's no point telling them that they are good but actually they are not" she lectured me right after everybody left.

By the way she looked and her English, there was no doubt that she was a Korean, but working for both Uni Adelaide and UniSA as a law tutor.

To be frank, I and Jason were terrible in Law, but few weeks later Jason was crossed out of the list, leaving me behind. Maybe he showed some improvements or because he hardly asked any questions afterward.

"Hafizul and Jason, you guys didn't study. There is no point having an appointment with me if you didn't do your part" She argued when I requested an appointment with her weeks ago.

Honestly, I didn't really study much for law. Yet, I still pushed myself to go for lectures or listened to online recording, a day before the tute. Apparently, it wasn't enough. I put all the blame on myself.

Right from the beginning of semester I failed to manage my time properly. Procrastination had permanently been written onto my to-do list.

Sometimes, it crossed my mind that I wanted to prove she was wronged about me. I still believed that there was chance for me to shine in this subject, despite as we went deeper into topics, it confused me. Yet, In sha Allah.

But, there were no point of pleasing her. After all she was just a mortal human similar to me and you. Perhaps, she had a conflict of interest to maintain her reputation as a tutor. * Duty to avoid conflict of interest was under s181 and s182 of the Corporation Act fyi. Hurm, my law wasn't that bad afterall. Haha. * By the way, it appeared to me pleasing Allah is the best choice.

Source: http://www.facebook.com/themuslimshow

If I studied just to prove to someone that I was good, at the end I might got what I wanted, but on the side of Allah I gained nothing, just tiredness.

It was true that success it a rizq from Allah and everything has been decided even before we were created. Success and failure had been written. The pen had been lifted and the ink had dried. But we never knew what our fate was before it happened.

Islam was not a deen of magic. Hardly would we succeed if we didn't put our best foot forward and started aiming for it. By sleeping and watching Korean drama would never promise you a success ahead. * Disclaimer for those who extremely genius beyond reasonable doubt* apparently we need to work and start doing something.

“Why should I work hard if it had been written for me?" Some might be asking this question.

It was extremely true that the end product was already out and waiting to happen. But do know that the knowledge of Allah was superior and beyond ours. We may though we had choices in life. We could choose either watching the heart warming" winter sonata" or the fierce “fast and furious 6". Indeed those choices had been covered by the knowledge of Allah. He knew you would watch “winter sonata" alone in your room, on your bed, cried badly that even a box of tissue wasn't enough to dry your tears.

By the same token, He knew that you would embark an effort to work or not and the outcome would highly based on it. If it turned out otherwise, do knew Allah knew better for you.

The main reason for all these effort was merely to gain rewards from Allah.

If the cake was certain to be edible and awesome. Then, the mixing and baking were the one being rewarded by Him.

Similarly, if the outcome was certain, then our struggles were the one that may be rewarded, if we followed His path and did sincerely for Him.

So whoever does an atom's weight of good will see it

And whoever does an atom's weight of evil will see it. (99:7-8)

In sha Allah, in the day of judgement, even a simple and small tiny good deed will be accounted by Allah, and likewise.

Thus, those who are, were or will be struggling for finals, ALL THE BEST. Make dua' to Him as He will hear you. Remember, never worry about the outcome as He has decided something that will bring us closer to Him and the best for us. But, do embark to struggle and make sure your boxes of reward are full in the end. 

Remember, after all study is just a fraction of life :)

In sha Allah, my first paper next week will be law. Please pray for my success and may Allah reward and done similarly to you. 

Source: http://www.facebook.com/themuslimshow

Last week I had my last tutorial with her.

At the end, she was calling my classmates’ names.

‘I know you guys wouldn’t have any trouble in Law” she added at the end.

“Did she just skipped us or she totally forgotten our names?” I told Jason.

I was sitting next to Dacklyen, one of the smartest in our class and no doubt she was looking at me earlier.

“Hafizul and Jason, you two are in trouble” Now all my thoughts were cleared.

As usual, she would be asking us if there was any question.

“Hafizul, do you have any question?”

“Nope” I answered instantaneously.

“Are you sure?”

She smiled and we all laughed.

An eclipse but not yet a sunset

Bismillah
Assalamualaikum wbt

They said we were crushed, but deep inside they knew nothing. 

It was one late evening in 2008. I was on my way to my most longed hometown, Sekinchan, when the bus passed Bagan Datoh, a small town in Perak. The side road was packed with blue flags and one huge picture of a smiling man appeared in the midst of those blue banners. There were still some flags of different colours, but they were obviously outnumbered. I didn’t care much as I was still in form four though. I took least care of the politics.

“None of my business” I whispered, before went back to my luring sleep.

It was nearly 12.00 am in Adelaide. All of us were excitedly looking at the screen, it was 21 VS 9 and apparently we were losing.

“No worries, we haven’t reached Peninsular regions yet” my friend tried to ease the tense as we started to look worried and pale.

Here I was, anxiously updating the page, absolutely the opposite side of  me, 5 years ago.

As the clock nearly struck 2 am, the simple majority was formed. Our hope crushed by the winning of the other armies. Soon, the Facebook was flooded with dismal comments and every pictures were turning black, for the very first time, we were celebrating 'Earth Hour' together.

“5.5.2013, the day where democracy of Malaysia died” one of them wrote.

Frankly, we were disappointed as well. We were praying and hoping for great news from the other armies.

Yet, Syeikh Jum'ah Amin said,

“We are relying too much upon our materials effort for victory, least we remember the Robbul Asbab, the Robb to those reasons” 

The Robb of where every fate lied on His hand

The Robb that would grant us victory

Our Robb, Allah the All Mighty.

Right from beginning, we enthusiastically went down to streets and people “Honked” for revolution, updating status daily, fiercely protecting the voting boxes, sharply looking for “paid foreigners” and strongly criticizing the ink purchased from MYDIN. But, our armies might forget Him, late for prayers and worse some might not even had time to pray.

Verily, He would postpone the victory if our armies not yet deserving it.

He knew the triumph would not distinct us from the other armies.

He knew victory would make us far from Him.

If we couldn’t preserve good relationship with Him when we were weak, unlikely we would when were victorious.

It was a strong reminder to me indeed. 

A true believers will not be in grieve as Allah has provided the cure
through His unbreakable promises

Before coming to Australia, we were obliged to attend a BTN, a brainwash program by the government.

“Lets us talk about politics” she said when we were asked to rank government, law and citizen based on priority.*If I wasn't mistaken*

“I would put it to the very last, as politic is always dirty” 

“No, no...Let’s talk about fair and clean politics” she argued

Well, it was now proven that mixture of politics and fairness did not go well, *if it was held by unrighteous people*

The next morning I woke up with hope that our soldiers weren’t tore severely. Alhamdulillah, thumbs up! The armies managed to block 2/3 majority of the parliament.

If we looked at the great battle of Badr, in which the greatness did not by the numbers *300 VS 1000*, yet it was due to the combat of haq against batil, the Muslims were victorious.

However, battle of Uhud came subsequently and the Muslims were defeated.

The tone in the Quran was totally different. It was declined to warning after the amazing triumph of Badr, yet more to consolidating in the aftermath of Uhud.

This was where my awesome friend quoted *verses revealed after the battle of Uhud*,

So do not weaken and do not grieve, and you will be superior if you are [true] believers. (Al Imran, 3:139) 

“Don’t be weak and sorrow, because we are a superior against the other army. But, were we the true believer?” he said.

But it did not end there, next Allah said,

If a wound should touch you - there has already touched the [opposing] people a wound similar to it. And these days [of varying conditions] we alternate among the people so that Allah may make evident those who believe and [may] take to Himself from among you martyrs - and Allah does not like the wrongdoers. (Al Imran, 3:140)

There were reasons behind it. Allah knew best. He may grant us defeat as a way to separate those who believed and those who didn’t, to see how we reacted to it. 

Did we still put all trust on Him? 

Did we worship and rely on Him more than before?

Did we still have strong and undivided faith on Him?

Believe Him, Allah did not like the wrongdoers.

If you thought solving a rubic cube was complex enough, politics went deeper than that and it could only be overpower by maturity.

Maturity in making observation.

If you asked a random guy of why he was supporting our allies, he might not be able to answer it.




They yelled for fairness, equality and better future, yet deep in their heart they might not know the true reason.

Maybe it wasn’t the time for us to achieve islamic government.

Yet, it was still time for us to develop islamic individual.

To touch the hearts of these people.

To built the community who put all trust to Allah.

Who worship Him as He was the Ahad in their lifes.

To reach out to the heard of not yet muslims, who began to be open-minded towards islam.

Those who not yet muslim that rather standing under the overwhelming hot sun, holding a green flag, rather than a blue one.

Who never rejected the rules of Allah, but complemented it to be the best.

Indeed, this defeat was a great victory for islam.

In Sha Allah

Allahu'alam